what is the point of putting in so much effort, when in the end all i get is bad comments and discouraging remarks. what is the point of trying so hard when in the end i know that i will never meet their high expectations and standards. what is the point of trying so hard when i know i will never be as good as the rest of them. what is the point really, when in the end everything i do will just go unnoticed. what is the point of doing so much, when in the end what i do is not even duly appreciated.

not exactly in a very good mood right now. guess i've been thinking too much. all these bottled up feelings, but i feel that i don't really have anyone to share them with. i guess i have to learn to cast all my cares upon Him. oh well.

don't worry about me, i'm fine