it's really hard to please both sides all the time. i don't want to make either of them upset by spending more time/"having more fun"/talking more to one of them. i don't want either of them to feel left out. i don't want them to get the wrong idea. i don't want to hurt/upset either of them. it's hard to have fun when you know that she might get jealous/hurt, and you really don't want to hurt her feelings. i don't know. it's so hard. and i don't want sad things to happen. oh well.

i think you both know who you are, right? anyway i just wanna say that i love both of you so much. and i treasure both of you so, so much. and well...friends forever. =)